May 2012
3 posts
3 tags
i want someone to tell me why
i’m so happy and so sad at the same time…
Leaving Florence in an hour and taking a train to...
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April 2012
8 posts
3 tags
what i really want
I haven’t been honest with myself lately. Basically, I’m being such a pushover. I know what I want out of the different facets of my life, but I’m not vocalizing it. I’m “settling.” Begin: vague tangent.
I want to feel appreciated. I want to feel like I’m something special to you. At the end of the day, words don’t mean anything. It’s how you...
when i wrote a song about one of my high school...
…i said:
he was always tearin’ me down
just so he could be the one to build me back up
he’d hold me close and whisper something about love
when i think about my life now, there’s not a whole lot of being “built back up.” sometimes i think i need to reconnect with my high school self. just for the little things.
written one year ago today
maybe i need someone who likes the exact same musicians i do
maybe i need someone who won’t make fun of me for every habit i have
maybe i need someone who will hold my hand in public
maybe i need someone new
maybe i’m not supposed to be with you
Things my boyfriend has said to me in the past...
“You are a facebook douche!”
“Watching you try to work a spoon is amazing.”
“You are an evil bitch.”
“Please don’t talk in your sleep tonight.”
“I love you.”
a lesson in not giving up
I find myself thinking about “this time last year” often. For example, on Easter sunday of 2011, I drove from my mother’s house in Cincinnati back to Nashville. The relationship I had spent so much time building seemed to crumble the day before. I remember tears pouring down my face as I promised myself I would give up on that boy and the feelings I thought I had.
…Well I...
March 2012
6 posts
me: Hey. I love you.
josh: Good.
the upcoming week
…is so busy I really need to type it all out
MONDAY 9:00-9:50 - Information Systems Management 10:00-11:50 - Internship 12:00-12:50 - Statistics 2:00-6:00 - Work 7:30 - ANDREW BIRD @ THE RYMAN
TUESDAY 9:30-10:45 - Psychology 11:00-3:15 - Internship 3:30-4:45 - Economics 5:00-6:15 - Music Publshing 6:30-8:30 - Italy Study Abroad Dinner
WEDNESDAY 9:00-9:50 - Information Systems Management...
February 2012
9 posts
A letter to my Dad
Hi Dad,
I can’t believe it’s been 4 years without you. Looking back at those first few weeks, I thought there was no way I could do it. Just the thought of a Reds game without you or the absence of your voice in our home was earth-shattering. But I did it. I’m strong. I stand for everything you stood for, and I’m positive every single day.
I just wanted to let you know...
so loving...
Me: You're a jerk.
Josh: I love you.
Me: ....
Josh: You don't have to love me back.
Me: Ugh I love you too.
Josh: Great, now I have to deal with that shit.
January 2012
12 posts
3 tags
and how i’m so into you now that i can’t see out
show me how to give you what you’ll never doubt
all i want is to be what you cannot live without
3 tags
hope is a bastard
do you know what hope is?
hope is a bastard,
hope is a liar,
a cheat and a tease
hope comes near you,
kick its backside,
it has no place in days like these.
December 2011
20 posts
when best friends get group texting
Kari: We go back to school Wednesday the 4th, therefore Friday the 6th I declare we are going to my cabin. Me and my crew + your lovers and Griff and his crew + their lovers. Camping to the extreme!!!
Me: I'm in.
Jilian: Whaaa sounds supa fun. I'm in. And uh....does Christine count as my lover then?
Kari: Christine is everyone's lover. Does Kari or Jilian sound better, Christine?
Jilian: Me me pick me Christine!!!
Christine: I choose...
Me: Why am I not an option?
Christine: YOUR MOMS
Kari: YOU CHOOSE ANDY
Jilian: I'm hotter than Andy screw that
Jilian: And how dare you talk about my mother
Me: Screw you guys I wasn't even on the ballot
Jilian: Hahahah Em me and you are a given, I just don't like upsetting Josh.
Christine: I choose...my apple.
Kari: EMILY YOU ARE IN A RELATIONSHIP
Me: KARI SO ARE YOU
Kari: Christine you treat your apples horribly! Throw away their leftovers in minutes.
Christine: I will make it up to my beloved Appie the first night of camping at dusk.
Jilian: I have no idea what you guys are talking about but if I get passed up for a fruit I'm gonna be pissed
he said, “honey pick up the phone. i need to get more alone. i need to get more alone. and your voice drives me crazy…”
missing your bed, i never sleep.
tell me you fell ‘cause of my grace
and not to help you erase her face
…make it your best lie.
how long will it take for us to come undone? if you know the answer, tell me now and i’ll write up a calendar for our count-down
…cause what if what we see is all we’ve got?
